HELLO FROM THIS SIDE

This is my millionth attempt at writing a blog (I have several blogs to my credit however unsuccessful they turned out)It isn't starting the blog that is usually the issue, it is the devotion to continue blogging no matter what happens. I start the blog usually because I crave a release, a medium to pour out my frustrations, visualize my thoughts better (if that makes sense) So here I am again I really think blogging is my form of release from pressures of life, an outlet I can really use to express myself and I hope this time around I get to continue, I hope I can post regularly. As the name suggests I was once a wall flower (slightly still am) I see this blog as my coming of age, coming into my womanhood, essence and finding my voice a sort of self discovery ish, I hope to talk about issues that plague me as candidly as I can (Though I might not be able to resist infusing fiction) I hope people get to read it and I hope people enjoy it and I hope I do continue to blog and that my voice shines through. If you are looking for fancy writings, pretty poetry and a beautiful romance between words this isn't the blog for that, all I can guarantee is that I would write from my heart. Much love

Me again

yes its me ive bin gone 4 a while now because of all the drama that was going on in my life and during that period ive missed the opportunity of having this outlet to pour out my feeling, hopes, anguish and pain. the festive period was soooo much fun i hung out and went a little out of my comfort zone some things penned out and some others didnt, speaking of things that did not pen out, the boy i met that i thought in my subconscious could be something turned out to be a fluzz, a complete jerk, and while i kinda expected it, it hurt a little that it did not work out and i just recently has to let it go as it just was'nt worth it, and i wanted to end it with a little bit of my pride in tact. so once again here i am again a single gal with no prospects of luv and while i feel tempted to feel pity for myself i realise that there is no point as its even more pathetic to feel sorry for oneself . at this point of my life i kinda realise how much i have and my confidence has gotten a serious self boost, and while i might not be in a relationship serious or otherwise i still have a lot going for me, awesome friends and family, great career prospects so ille just do me, till next time your single girl. Lots Of Love ps i cldnt tink of a suitable picture so i decided to stick with nature

The boy of my reality

okay so this is an unfamiliar territory, i met a boy more like i reconnected with an old schoolmate by accident anyway the thing is i really like him which is soooo funny since ive only known him now 4 a couple of days before which i barely knew he existed. lyk i don't know wat 2 do i dnt want 2 move too fast nd i m not sure how he feels about me sigh, at tyms lyk these i wish i cld read minds, lyf wld be so much easier if i cld. i have overthought every action since we met nd try 2 kip my mind off things and let them play out naturally. i don't know if i should call him or if i would be rushing things. arggghr this is just to frustrating. i love talking to him even though we mostly have nothing to say, its just the awkwardness of it all, i love the unexpectedness of our meeting. Anyway kip yhu updated in hopes that we make something out of this.im inspired by this quote i read on twitter- "You can never be happy if you’re trapped in the past and fearful of the future. Living in the present is the only way to be happy". till we do this again Lots Of Love

The Single Life

I really hate being single ive hated it 4 a long tym and i know it seems really funny to some people and to others it may seem pathetic but its just how i feel especially nowadays. when it comes to relationships im d go to gal 4 advice but in actual fact i have no real lyf experience dating. some people might wonder wat i lyk about relationships, especially some of my friends who bitch about the lack of freedom and the stress of commitment to one person. i love that you get to share your life with one person, share your precious moments as well as sad ones, share an intimacy not only a sexual one but also an emotional one, i like the going on dates, the cuddling, i like knowing you have someone there to look out for you, i like knowing there is someone out there thinking of me, i like that i can look forward to receiving calls and text messages from that special someone, whats not to like about that. Even though i know that relationships are not all good i still want all these things. my friends think am not bothered and i have high standards but i really am and i feel like ive just not found the right person with that connection. so till then im still happily or should i say sadly single. till we do this again Lots Of Love

intro or wateva u choose 2 call it

wow i really cant remember wen last i kept a blog but over d past few months ive felt the need 2 so here i am again im hoping dat dis wld help me kip my sanity. til we do dis again lots of luv